It’s Okay To Not Be Okay

13th November

Hi there! So, again, I know I haven’t been on here very often. And that’s because things haven’t been going great lately. I’ve started to fall behind in school work again and I’m not motivated to do even the smallest things.

And every time I tell someone somethings going wrong, either no one actually listens or they say I talk too much about my problems.

But I noticed that either way, I’m still going to have to somehow deal with my problems. And if talking about it helps, then I guess that’s how I’ll deal with it.

I’ve also not been feeling well about my mental health, and I need to work on that. I’ve been feeling insecure about myself, my body and my acne. And about how good I actually am at things compared to other people.

But I’ve started talking more to my friend, who I’ve recently had a big argument with, actually, and I noticed that it actually feels better to say that I’m not okay.

Even if the person I tell that I’m not okay doesn’t listen, it still makes me feel better knowing that they know that somethings wrong. And it’s up to them if they want to help me out or not.

And I know that the title of this post is really cheesy, but it really is true. It’s okay to not be okay.

I’ve started accepting that I don’t feel okay and that I need to do something about it. It’s not going to get better by itself. I’m trying to make small steps towards a bigger change.

This post is short, and it’s more of a rant than an actual post, but I hope that it helped you. So if you feel that things are going wrong, talk to someone. Talk to a friend, a parent or sibling, someone you know you can trust.

And if you ever need or want to talk to me, my email is: theunknownwiki@gmail.com . I’ll reply as soon as I can.

Have a nice day, or night, wherever you’re from.

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New Blog Design!

30th October

Hi there! So, you may have seen that over the last few days there have been some changes to my blog design. But now, it’s all finished!

Well, I might make some changes to it, but it’s only small details that you’ll probably not realise anyway.

My whole blog is designed by the lovely and super talented Kate from All The Trinkets. She has made all the graphics, and put everything together for me, since I’m really bad at that stuff…

Now, when I say that I’m really thankful for all of this, I mean it. I appreciate all the time Kate has spent on this project, because it was a long time. It all started in February, which is now around 8 months!!

Kate, I know you’ve heard this a lot of times throughout this whole process, but thank you so so much for doing all of this for me. You’re really talented, and ready to listen to every detail I gave you. I love the whole design. It’s perfect. ❤

Now, I’ll just show you all of the graphics she made me.

Header:

Divider:

Icon:

Signature 1:

Signature 2:

There’s also a template she made for me for my featured posts, but I need to figure out how to properly use it. I’ll add it here soon.

Don’t forget to head over to Kate’s blog, she makes amazing and helpful posts too!

Have a good day, or night, wherever you’re from.

P.S This is so fun already.

THANK YOU! <3

29th October

Hi there! I know I’ve been gone for a long time again, and I’m sorry, but there’s just stuff going on in my life that I can’t ignore.

First of all, I have my music solo tomorrow in front of the whole class. I’m scared, but I’m trying to keep positive. I’ll just do the best I can.

Second of all, my dad’s car has been hit during the night, so there’s just been stress in the house. We need to find new pieces for the car, but it’s not as bad as it could have been because the person hit the tire.

Also, we don’t know who it was. It was in the middle of the night and they just drive away. Everyone is safe, at least we think that, and the car could have been worse.

Anyyywayyy, I shouldn’t be starting this post so negatively because…

It’s my 1 Year Anniversary on this blog!!

I honestly can’t thank you all enough for sticking around with me. There’s been so many times where I was sad or down, but when I went onto my blog and saw all the positive comments, they really helped me. You all helped me.

It doesn’t matter to me if I have 3 or 300 followers. For me, it matters that I might change one little aspect of someone’s life and make it better.

I loved writing posts for you guys. Even if they were rushed because I wanted to get a post out, I still enjoyed writing them.

Again, thank you for being here for my good times, and helping me through the bad times. I appreciate you all so much!

I can’t wait to spend another year, or even years, here with all of you.

Have a good day, or night, where ever you’re from.

Love Wiki, going into the unknown…

P.S There’s also a second special post coming this evening.

What’s In My Backpack & Pencil Case? // Back To School

4th September

Hi there! So, school starts soon. Or it already started for you. If that’s the case, then I’m sorry for being late as always.

Anyywayy, today I am going to be telling you what’s in my backpack and pencil case, because that’s what everyone wants to know, right?

The reasons I’m not going to be showing what’s in my backpack and pencil case are because 1) I haven’t actually packed yet, but every year I pack the same things so this is more of a checklist for me… And 2) I don’t have enough time to get pictures of everything. Sorry!

I’ll just get into it before you shout at me for being unproductive and for procrastinating!

What’s In My Backpack & Pencil Case? (And Blazer)

Backpack:

1) Pencil Case

Yeah, I mean, I can’t really go to school without it. The list for my pencil case is below the backpack section, if that makes sense.

2) Planner

Every year we get a planner from our school. It has important info like about our school and stuff, some rules and stuff like a periodic table, writing techniques and all the things people never actually use… It’s just for writing homework really and a parent has to sign it every week, for some weird reason.

3) Books

Basically just exercise books that I need for everyday lessons.

4) Homework Folder

I just keep a homework folder/case kind of thing. So if I have some homework and I don’t have my book for it, or I have an important piece of paper, like a certificate or something, I would put it in there so it doesn’t get damaged.

5) Water Bottle

Even though I don’t drink water at all often, I keep a water bottle because I still need water.

6) Lunchbox

I love food way too much to miss lunch. I sometimes buy school food, but I normally have food from home.

7) Umbrella

It rains a lot in England, so it’s a good idea to have an umbrella on me all the time, just in case it unexpectedly rains.

8) Pads

What? A girl has her needs.

Ok sorry that’s cringey I’ll stop being so weird…

9) Hair bands

Just in case my hair band snaps or I need another one. Or if someone needs to borrow one.

10) Keys

I mean, how else would I get into my house? My parents aren’t usually home when I get from school, so I need my keys with me.

11) Deodorant

I just don’t want to smell bad after P.E or something.

Pencil Case:

1) Scientific Calculator

In my school we require a scientific calculator, so I have to have one.

2) Blue Pen (+extra)

I normally wrote in blue ink because apparently it helps you remember stuff, I don’t actually know if it works though.. It also looks a tiny bit more colourful and less boring.

3) Black Pen (+extra)

Just if there’s that teacher that tell you to write in black ink or if someone else needs one.

4) Pencils

We need to use a pencil in maths, for some weird reason, and we need a pencil for graphs and drawings.

5) Ruler

To underline and measure stuff. I don’t know what else to write…

6) Scissors

I hate using school scissors because they’re almost always half-broken and they’re tiny. And there’s never enough for a whole class so I prefer to have my own.

7) Glue

Again, there’s never enough and they’re always broken or something. People just play around with them and it’s annoying to use it afterwards.

8) Rubber

To erase my mistakes… nothing else really.

8) Sharpener

To sharpen my pencil and colouring pencils.

9) Colourful Gel Pens

I like adding colour to my page, it makes it less boring and I can colour code notes so it’s easier to remember.

10) Highlights

For highlighting important information in texts or in my book.

11) Compass And Protractor

Compass for measuring angles, and protractor for making circles.

12) Tipp-ex

We’re not actually allowed to use it at school but I use it if I make mistakes in pen because I don’t like scribbling stuff out in my book.

13) Colouring Pens

I don’t actually know why, I just like having colouring pens with me, even though I don’t use them often. Maybe for like maps or a key for something. I don’t know.

14) Colouring Pencils

I use them for drawing etc. And they might be even more important now that I started Art as a GCSE subject because I will have to draw more using different techniques etc.

Blazer

(We have uniforms in our school so I also keep some stuff in my blazer too)

1) Phone

We’re not allowed our phones but because I don’t wear a watch, I always look at the time on my phone. My wrist is just too small for a watch!

2) Card Holder

I always have this card holder, and this year I got one as a gift from my aunt. In there, I put my bus pass, so I can get to and from school, lunch card, to buy lunch at school, and £5 just in case there’s like a bake sale or something and I forget to bring money.

3) Tissues

I always have tissues with me. No more explanation is needed really.

4) Hand Gel

I have some antibacterial hand gel because there’s always germs everywhere and I don’t like having dirty hands.

5) Latex Bands

Don’t get weirded out! It’s for my braces!

6) Earphones

I like to listen to music on my way to and from school. I really like music, if you couldn’t tell from my previous posts.

7) Strepsils Tablets

Those are like tablets when your throat hurts or something, so I have them just in case.

8) Chewing Gum/Tic Tacs

I’m not allowed to chew gum because I have braces, but I don’t like having a smelly breath so it’s either that or tic tacs, depends what I have.

Thats all for today. I hope you enjoyed this post, let me know if you did.

Have a nice day, or night, wherever you’re from. ❤

Love Wiki, going into the unknown…

P.S Good luck with school, you can do it!

The Mystery Blogger Award

3rd September

Hi there! So, basically I was nominated by the amazing Shay for the Mystery Blogger Award. Thank you so much for nomianting me!

Rules:

  • Thank whoever nominated you and include a link to their blog.
  • Tell your readers 3 things about yourself.
  • Answer the questions from the person who nominated you.
  • Nominate 10-20 bloggers you feel deserve the award.
  • Ask your nominees 5 questions of your choice with one weird or funny one.
  • Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog.

3 Things About Me:

1) I have an obsession with fairy lights. Maybe not an obsession but I love them.

2) I love music, and I have written some songs but I’ve never shared them because I can’t sing.

3) I almost never watch TV, I mostly just watch YouTube.

Shay’s Questions:

1) What’s the most interesting thing you heard or saw this week?

My sister actually cleaning her room…? I don’t know, I can’t think of anything right now.

2) Your opinion and view on aliens and alien conspiracies?

I never really think about that, so I don’t have an opinion or view on it. Sorry.

3) If you could have any animal as a pet, what would it be? Just imagine they wouldn’t kill you if it’s something like a great white shark…

Nothing too extreme, that’s for sure. Maybe like a small lizard. Or maybe a koala or panda. Or a quokka, but I wouldn’t want to scare anyone. I think I might just go with a panda.

4) Current mood?

Tired but I can’t sleep. A bit annoyed and dissapointed.

5) A very short yet wild/interesting story you can tell right now! GO!

I guess it doesn’t have to be real so…

One beautiful afternoon, I wanted to go for a walk, but I had a better idea in mind. I stood up from my comfortable bed and opened my old window. I then proceeded to climb out, even though I heard knocks from outside my room for me to go down for dinner. I then went to the small stable we have, took a saddle into my hand and walked over to my tiger. Her name was Strike, as one of her stripes looked like a lightning strike.

I put the saddle on her, then sat on the saddle. I told her to just start running, and she nodded her head.

Once we got far enough into the fields, Strike asked me “Where to now?” And I pointed to my left. She nodded her head again.

As she started running, I noticed a cute house in front of us, and I was willing to see it up close. There was a lady and a man standing in front of the door, but I couldn’t make out their faces.

I closed my eyes, feeling the cold wind against my skin.

“Ashley! What is the answer?!” Someone shouted at me. I quickly opened my eyes in fear, and looked at the whiteboard in front of me. It read the question ‘What are the 3 adaptations of a tiger?’ In the teacher’s handwriting.

Geez, I really did daydream about riding a tiger in the middle of class… WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

I’m sorry this is bad, I couldn’t think of anything else. 😂

I nominate…

Bayance

In A Messy World

Thoughtful Musician

Wamby

Bambino Blogger

The Girl In Boots

Nerd Online

My Questions:

1) What do you normally eat for breakfast?

2) What is the first thing you do in the morning?

3) Any quote or piece of advice you give people, but don’t follow yourself?

4) Would you rather know exactly how you die, or exactly when you die?

5) Weird Question: If you could be any animal for a day, and had to carry on your day like nothing happened, what animal would you be? Every one would see you as that animal, and you have to be in a public place all the time.

Thank you so much for ready, and don’t forget to check out Shay’s blog. She’s great.

Have a nice day, or night, wherever you are. ❤

Love Wiki, going into the unknown…

P.S I’m am trying to work on at least one back to school post, and I’m sorry I haven’t been posting lately. Once school starts and I get back into a routine of posting, I’ll definetly post more.

My Top 10 Travel Essentials

15th August

Hi there! So, I’ve seen a lot of people do this kind of thing, so I decided to try it out. I’m going to Poland tonight, and I thought it might be cool to write about what I will take. I’ll just get straight into it.

(In no specific order)

My Top 10 Travel Essentials:

1) Phone

This isn’t healthy, but I almost always need my phone with me. I don’t always use it, but I need it on me. I’m trying to change this, however I still need my phone when I travel to check things like time or call people.

2) Tissues

I think this is a normal one. It’s very useful to have tissues when you’re travelling.

3) Earphones

I like listening to music a lot, so I need earphones to be able to do that.

4) Drink

A bottle of water (or any drink really) is always useful and nice to have while travelling.

5) Power Bank

It’s not always an essential when you’re travelling, but it’s useful when you use your phone a lot – maybe for taking pictures, or using Google to check things.

6) Lip Balm

I just don’t like having dry lips…

7) Hand Gel/Cleaning Wipes

I don’t like having dirty hands. Also, if you touch a lot of things then touch your face frequently, like I unfortunately do, it causes more spots etc. (or whatever you call them).

8) Book

I’m not that much into books, but I like reading on a plane or train etc.

9) Pads etc.

If I’m on my period, they’re very useful… As simple as that really.

10) Friend

Sometimes it’s boring to travel alone, so bring a friend with you if you can. (I pretty much always go with family so this is more of a tip. (Not really but I don’t know what else to call it)).

This is all for today’s post. I might not have enough time to post in the next 2 weeks ish because I’m going on holiday with my family. I’m sorry, but I just don’t want to sit on my phone a lot when I’m on holiday.

Have a nice day, or night, wherever you’re from. ❤

Love Wiki, going into the unknown…

Things You Should This Summer

3rd August

Hi there! Since I’m a basic girl and I’m only getting used to blogging again (that sounds so weird to me… I’ve only been gone for a month?) I decided to write about what you could do this summer.

So, first of all, I’ll need you to put your phone down after you read this. Phones are so unhealthy and I can totally not survive without my phone for a day. So enjoy your environment and surroundings while they are still there… not taken by climate change… or money… or people’s greediness… ANYWAY.

Things You Should Do This Summer:

1) Go for a walk.

I know this is a basic one, put people underestimate walks. Go for a nice walk in the park or around the neighbourhood. Or, if you’re a lazy potato like me, sit down somewhere in the park or in a field.

2) Make your own smoothies or ice creams.

I’ve never made ice creams but I’ve made smoothies many times and its not hard. Just clean, cut, then mix some fruits and make a smoothie! You can also add milk or maybe some honey! Or you can make any kind of food really.

3) Ride your bike.

This is more for the non-potato beings. Take your bike out of your shed, or garage, or basement, or whatever, and ride it around your neighbourhood. And if you don’t have a bike, rent one, or borrow one from a friend.

4) Invite your friends or family.

This is pretty much self explanatory. Just invite someone you know you’ll have fun with, and then have fun with them!

5) Clean your room.

I’m looking at all those people who “never have time” to clean their rooms. And that’s definetly not me! (Just kidding, it’s totally me…) Now that it’s summer and you have lots if time, just go clean your room!

6) Find a temporary/summer job.

You might not only have something to do but you could also earn some money! I’m currently babysitting my mum’s friends daughter. So get up from your butt and do something useful!

7) Learn a new skill.

Whether it’s learning a new language, or how to play an instrument, there’s always something you can learn. There’s plenty of tutorials and help on the internet, that nothing is really stopping you!

8) Do something you’ve never done before.

This is kind of similar to the last one, but I mean maybe something more interesting or extreme. Maybe go scuba diving, or mountain biking, or anything really. I’m sure you could find something you’ve never done before.

9) Face your fears.

If you’re scared or heights, maybe go skydiving. If you’re scared of insects or whatever, go camping in the forest. There’s so much you could do, and the only barrier is your fear!

10) Do something creative.

You could try to follow some kind of DIY tutorial, or maybe you could write something creative like a story or a song. Get your brain juices flowing! (Okay, that sounds weird, I’m sorry…)

So those are my 10 ideas on what you could do this summer! Just please don’t spend the whole summer inside, looking at your phone or computer screen…

Have a lovely week ahead!

Love Wiki, going into the unknown…

P.S My cousins are coming to England today, literally in like 1 hour, so I’m sorry that I didn’t post anything since I came back because of cleaning and preparing and stuff. And I’m sorry if I don’t post much in the upcoming few weeks. I’m also going to Poland in 2 weeks, but I’ll try to post something until then.

Thank you for your patience and support!

I’m Back?!

27th July

Hi there! It’s been a whole month since I published anything on here… I’m sorry, I definetly did take my time with all of this.

If you’re not sure what I’m talking about, why I left, or you didn’t even notice that I left, read this post where I talk about it all.

Ok, so I know it’s only been a month but I’ve got a few things to catch you up on, so this might be a long post…

First of all, if you are reading this, thank you so much for sticking around, and deciding to read my terrible blog posts! I appreciate each and every one of you!

Second of all, school has finally ended! I was seriously waiting for this moment where I don’t have to wake up at 6 in the morning and burn in that school uniform…

Third of all, I had Sports Day on Tuesday. It was the last day and also only half of a school day. And let me tell you, a lot has happened in that small amount of time:

  1. I found out that I will only have 2 classes with my friend (Health & Social and Music)
  2. I’ve been basically forced to do an 800m run because no one else wanted to do it or they “already had a track event”
  3. I’m a potato so I can’t run for that long…
  4. I’ve been called a female dog (if you know what I mean) by the “queen” of my year… Typical popular girl – you can imagine the rest
  5. My friend’s knee was fractured or something and we would only do it together so we walked for like 3/4 of the 800m
  6. Me and my friend had a lot of time to look at a boy in my year who literally looks like the 16 -year-old version of Shawn Mendes! I promise I’m normal… or not.

Okay, that’s enough for now.

Also, I am really, really behind on reading blog posts in my reader, so I’m trying to get back on track and start catching up from like 3 months ago. (I’m a terrible potato being (Like human being but I’m a potato… yeah I’m not that amazing))

So that’s basically it! Thank you for even considering to read a post from me, and I hope I get back into consistent posting soon. I just need to get used to all of this again so I’m sorry if I dissapoint you.

Love Wiki, going into the unknown…

I’m Sorry? Motivation? Hiatus?

27th June

Hi there! So, I know that I haven’t posted yeterday and honestly I don’t have an excuse. And I’m sorry for that.

I noticed that basically since I got back from Paris, I’ve been different. I don’t know why, I just feel different.

I have no motivation to do anything, not even homework. I was always keen on doing homework, even though that sounds like I’m a big nerd, but I didn’t want to do it anyway. It’s just that, things I’m supposed to do, I put less mind to it. I back away from it, falling behind week after week.

I had a Biology test today, and I didn’t revise. I feel so bad with myself for that. I keep thinking it’s not my fault because I didn’t even fully know about the test, but deep down I know I had a feeling and I didn’t think about it at all. I did not even look towards revision, knowing that I could start early anyway.

I’m sorry for letting all of you down, and I mean it from the bottom of my heart. I just feel like I lost all hope in living.

I don’t know why I’m telling you all about this but I just haven’t been feeling myself lately, I guess. And even though I love blogging and I wanted to start it to help me I just can’t get myself to write anything. I have lots of ideas and support from you guys, don’t get me wrong, but I just can’t write them.

I’ve got about 4 weeks left of school, and there’s decline after deadline, so I guess I’ll have to take a break to figure everything out.

Long story short, I guess I’m taking a hiatus for the 4 weeks remaining of school.

Thank you all for sticking up with me for so long, I really appreciate each and every one of you.

And please tell me in the comments, how should I deal with getting back on track? How do I get my motivation/hope back?

Thank you for reading and your ongo8ng support ❤

Love Wiki, going into the unknown…

The Liebster Award #2

21st June

Hi there! I was nominated by In A Messy World for the Liebster Award. Thank you so much for the nomination! This is actually my second Liebster Award, and im really grateful for that.

Rules:

  • Thank the blogger(s) who nominated you
  • Share 11 facts about yourself
  • Answer the 11 questions the blogger(s) asked you
  • Nominate 11 bloggers for the award
  • Create 11 new questions for the nominees to answer
  • Let them know they’ve been nominated

Questions:

Tell us a dark secret about you. (mwahaha)

Once a secret is told, it becomes a story for others to enjoy.

What would you want to invent?

I honestly don’t know. Maybe a special button. So when I press, all the sadness and anger in the worls (including illnesses, starvation, arguments, or other things that can make you sad) can disappear for 2 hours. That would be nice.

What is your favourite feature of yourself?

I could say I like my eyes, but I don’t care about my looks. Occasionally I do but it doesnt matter. I’m going to say my shy, but strong personality. I’m a shy person, but when it comes to protecting someone (emotionally or physically) I will do all I can to help you. I also think I’m smart, sometimes funny, ambitious, and maybe responsible.

What would you like to explore, the ocean or space?

I am actually afraid of deep water, and I can’t swim, but I would probably want to explore the ocean. It’s just such a peaceful place, where nothing seems to matter.

What’s your favourite time of day?

I like sunset, it’s beautiful and always unique. It’s also the time when I can sit down, drink some tea or other delicious drink, and and enjoy being alive.

Harry Potter or Twilight?

Honestly, I’m not such a big fan of either, but I do enjoy watching Harry Potter once in a while.

Do you have any social media for your blog?

I have social media, but not especially made for my blog. I have a Twitter, which I only use to stalk people find out useful information. I also have an Instagram, but 1) I don’t post on it often anymore because I never seem to find good pictures and 2) it’s not related to my blog at all. It just has the link to my blog, nothing else.

What age do you want to die?

I dont think anyone should set a goal for when they can die. You’re alive right now, so why think about being dead?

Favourite outfit?

I dont have a favourite, but overall my favourite clothes are leggings (normally black…) and a loose t-shirt.

Would you rather know when someone is lying to you
or be able to lie without anyone knowing?

I would rather know when someone’s lying. Actually, I would even want to know why they’re lying. Like, are you scared of the truth? Do you not want to hurt me? Is there an actual valid reason why you’re lying?

Shoutout one of your fave blogs.

I can’t pick. I think everyone is great in their own way. I did do a post about my favourite bloggers, but 1 post isn’t enough, so I’ll be doing a part 2 soon.

I nominate…

Anyone who is a blogger!

I’m sorry, but sometimes I feel like I nominate people just for the sake of reaching enough people, and then feel guilty for not nominating others. So this time, I nominate everyone, because all of you deserve it!

My Questions:

These auestions are actually really good, so I’m going to use the same auestions.

  1. Tell us a dark secret about you (mwahaha)
  2. What would you want to invent?
  3. What is your favourite feature of yourself?
  4. What would you like to explore, the ocean or space?
  5. What’s your favourite time of day?
  6. Harry Potter or Twilight?
  7. Do you have any social media for your blog?
  8. What age do you want to die?
  9. Favourite outfit?
  10. Would you rather know when someone is lying to you or be able to lie without anyone knowing?
  11. Shoutout one of your fave blogs

Thank you again for nominating me, and I hope you have a nice week.

Love Wiki, going into the unknown…

P.S I decided that I will post tags/awards on Thursdays, as I think that the weekend should be dedicated more to my family and myself. I’m just experimenting with my schedules so I know which ones work best for me. I hope you don’t mind 🙂